ME, MYSELF AND I.

I am Abdulaziz Hemed Mafita and I was born on 11th December, Tanzanian youth. The smart, gorgeous, mercies face and the hard-to-poke smile on somebody’s face except for a short period of time are my easily seen physical appearances. Those who do not know me might actually think that I’m very self-assured, arrogant, bumptious, egotistical, and maybe overweening but it’s not like that and for sure they got it all wrong because once I start a relationship with someone, I usually tell what I feel about it, what I like and what I dislike, things that make me happy and things that get me off my mood so that I and them can meet each other halfway.

As Abdulaziz, I scatter my efforts and find it difficult to concentrate except for a short period of time, and then only as long as my interest lasts. My well-being destroys patience and stability that makes me unsystematic, restless, and reliable. I want to act spontaneously, I’m governed by my feelings and I do things when and how I please myself without any restriction or advice from others.

  

However, I am very self-expressive, artistic, musical, generous, and versatile. I could excel in any field where verbal expression is required such as sales, journalism, or promotion where I can use my natural gift of expression and my many creative ideas. I am original in my thinking and I could do very well in arguments and debates. I know that I must be very careful not to be sarcastic because I hate that kind of character. I am likely a quick nervous eater with a love for the rich foods, thus I could suffer from skin problems or tension in the solar plexus.

  

My personality indicates I’m a patient; a meticulous person who enjoys working on very detailed systematized things such as Computers and science. I do my best when there is no disruption as I do not easily adjust to interference and changes once I start a project. Also, I like to work step by step at my own speed.

My infinite patience has allowed me to develop intricate, involved skills to perfection. However, it is very easy for others to work and live with me as I deliberate too long in arriving at conclusions and allow small details to restrict my point of view. I often feel burdened with work, which is the result of my mental outlook. I worry about details out of proportion to their importance. I like to have time to think and plan my action matter-of-factly. I’m a very habit-forming person and I dislike changing a pattern of living that is comfortable for me.

  

Accordingly, there is much monotony in my life as I rarely have the ambition and confidence to make changes of any importance. I plan my affairs carefully and save methodically and cautiously, I dislike renewing anything that can be repaired. I have a traditional and conservative outlook on almost everything. Eating and other physical pleasures are a great source of satisfaction. I am idealistic and desire refinement. I am a sensitive person who feels and senses the invisible forces of nature but I am afraid I cannot interpret what I feel, thus I suffer from mental confusion.

  

I am too robust, and an inner nervous tension constantly depletes me of my vitality. I am quite the type of person who finds great joy in the beauties of nature, the art, music as well as poetry. I am vulnerable, which means I’m easily hurt physically and emotionally and very self-deprecating, and thus I could go into moods of depression. To overcome my extreme sensitivity, I could put on a false front and become extremely talkative at times. I crave peace, understanding, and relaxation. I live much within my own world of thought, devoid of congenial association, thus I experience frustration and much loneliness.

I am inclined to seek solitude, preferably out of nature where I can experience peace of mind. It requires me to assume responsibilities on behalf of others; people turn to me for advice and counsel desiring my sympathetic understanding of their needs. I am self-confident and I have a strength of character and that’s why I have a good sense of judgment. My role in life is to serve humanity as an ambassador of peace, a mediator. Learning to understand the heart and minds of others to help them with solutions could be my role.

 Developing tact and diplomacy, in my expression would allow me to merge differing viewpoints; thereby creating harmony and cooperation. My feelings for people must be understood and translated from emotion to an intellectual level to give me the positivity to base my decisions upon clear principles and analysis. Sometimes I could burden myself with personal involvement and a strong sense of obligation not to hurt or disappoint anyone. I can utilize the ideas and opinions of others in their search for harmonious solutions.

Alas, my lesson is, while remaining an individual, to forget myself and merge with others, to share and learn something constructive from my experiences by developing the fortitude and finesse to face and handle issues.